best thing happened today?
I received his postcards today, on 1st of April.
Yes, not one postcard, but two postcards.
He couldn’t finish his words in one card, so he sent me two. They look almost the same though.
Even though he only call me ‘friend’, no ‘dear’ in front of it, and I didn’t figure out what he wanted to say for all those words he wrote, I’m still happy.
It seems that it is the best thing that happened today, when I’m again drowning in the sea of assignments.
I really wish we can meet sometime, after about 10 years.
‘Anywhere in this world’.
random thoughts
What will change if you leave UK and come back one year later? Almost nothing. What about China? You don’t need a year, four months are long enough to see a lot of changes. My experience in 2010 and 2011 proves this. And this time, in the half a year that I’m away from my hometown, a lot has changed too. New shopping streets, new bridges across the river, new subway lines, and of course, new buildings. I believe when I come back half a year later, I will need a period of time to get used to the new environment that I’ve been used to.
Remember
If someone has walked out of your life, just let them go, don’t try to drag them back. You will become such a loser when everyone is moving on but you are still waiting. Be confident that the right one for you is on his way to find you, and your love will be as sweet as others. Don’t envy, don’t hate. The one who loved you will eventually be someone else’s, but you, the one he loved, will too. You cannot own everything you want, so just take it easy. Think more about what you get, not what you lose. If something is making you unhappy, avoid it. You need to know how to protect yourself.
Choice
I choose to stay up tonight, until I finish, or almost finish my last assignment. I don’t know when will I finish it or when will I go to bed. I just know I can’t put it off to tomorrow, or I’m doomed. About 1000 words left, and I kinda know what should I write, so it shouldn’t take very long. But I feel restless now, and I can’t focus for a long time. I think I need to have a rest, but I can’t. There is no time for me to write this lot tomorrow.
They told me to hang on a bit, and it will be fine soon. Yeah, they are right. I have no choice now. Wish me luck.
This starts to look like an introvert’s blog now.
Whatever. I’m so happy to know that I’m an introvert.
“Are introverts arrogant? Hardly. I suppose this common misconception has to do with our being more intelligent, more reflective, more independent, more level-headed, more refined, and more sensitive than extroverts.” — JONATHAN RAUCH
yeah. but so what.
I don’t like too crowded or noisy places. I don’t like to be with a big bunch of people. I don’t like parties.
I feel very comfortable staying with myself, or the one I love. If I’m with more than 3 people, I start to feel boring. If even more, I will automatically ignore the outside world and pretend that I’m alone. If you see a girl not talking at all and keep eating while others are all chatting and laughing in a party, that must be me. Every time I came back from a party that I have to go, I’d go: “Phew, finally I can be with myself again.” So I realized that I really don’t belong to that world.
Yeah, I’m a boring person, and I’m always the one who get least attention because I don’t like to seek attention. But so what? I’m quite happy about it. This is me. Please don’t judge people from your view, I’m not you.
Christmas Eve
Had dinner with Jade on Christmas Eve. She was cheering as usual and encouraged me a lot.
Something I have learned today: 1. Catch the ball when someone throws it to you, don’t let it drop. 2. Don’t bother caring about those who you don’t have interest in.
After coming back, we roommates had an apple exchange. I had the smallest and the only unwrapped one. The other girl who had it at first didn’t want it and handed it to me, so I took it. I really didn’t care about this, and I ate it all. Maybe some others may think I’m not happy, because I didn’t say a word. Yeah, maybe I’m not so into that girl. But for the apple thing, no, I’m just sleepy.
They kept gossiping about boys. Oh how interesting. A said B likes C, C said D likes A, and A and C both denied, and then started all over again. My head’s gonna explode. So I just sit there and ate my apple, smiling, thinking about other things. Am I just too old to appreciate girls talks?
I was wondering if girls’ friendship is founded on gossips. Maybe the answer is positive. But I can’t really understand how can they talk every other night till 1 am. How can you guys have THAT much to say? Sorry I’m not able to join your talks, I have more important things to do than struggling on boys who don’t love you at all/any more.
Anyway I still wrote down these things that I don’t like and I don’t want to care, to clarify that I really don’t care, though it seems like that I care. Who cares. I’m learning only to care about the ones that I care, and ignore those who I don’t care. Because I don’t have too much energy and time to care about them all.
What a great Christmas Eve. Merry Christmas.
12.10
Every time when I feel uncomfortable in parties and noises; when I notice that I like something different from others; when I am always ignored; when I feel upset; when I feel like a round peg in a square hole, I always believe that there must be some people like me somewhere on this planet, and I imagine how they live, how the observe the world, how they treat others, what details they concern, what kind of words they read. And that makes me feel better.
"Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."
Steve Jobs’ Stanford Commencement Address
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Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes.
The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them.
About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They invent. They imagine. They heal. They explore. They create. They inspire. They push the human race forward.
Maybe they have to be crazy.
How else can you stare at an empty canvas and see a work of art? Or sit in silence and hear a song that’s never been written? Or gaze at a red planet and see a laboratory on wheels?
We make tools for these kinds of people.
While some see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.
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Steve Jobs, Apple
